"by your sword, my life will be laid down. and i will be at peace"

the darkness from within clouds the truest judgement. let alone the pure naivety of a person's heart. regret is no longer the word. pushing forward fear and anxiety, a desperate package. what is true sin? levels and standards across the board yet deviate on how you and i are brought up. simply put, one man's meat another's poison. of the highest order. i fear the criticising eyes, tongues of vicious yet mindless peasants. ashamed of what i fear the shadows are where i choose to hide.

does it not weigh upon a mind so heavily that its alright to find a small outlet to show a little frailty. yet pride and honour does not allow the means to do so. what is left is just small traces of respect for oneself. what gives you the right to differentiate right and wrong. have u no errors?
society weakens us. empty words, slogans, speeches that bear no fruit. yet we all cling to it dearly as if we have no other way. what matters most is our peers? i beg not.

struggling to change. i lost. time for payback. take what you want. i have no wants anymore. i've forgotten how.