alright. its been quite awhile since i've actually put my thoughts down because of some issues. and yeah most posts have been happy ones or just posts of what i've done. its been a hellish week.

havent been getting my usual 12 hours of sleep. rushing assignment after assignment and finally im left with just one. the one i hate the most too. haha nice. and yeah i received a message which should have hurt alot but right now it just seems so right. that its the right time to read something like that. lets see... its november 16th. so i have been single.. hmm.. 2 years 8 months. wow? thats a long time. and that i actually managed to trust u makes it worst. i don't need you. i don't your foolishness in my life. this is it. i made too many mistakes in the past already. theres no more im gonna make regarding you.

but theres a bright side to it.. i see the true value of my mates. wwts. lt. or my new found friends at school. brilliant people. they wouldnt let me down. but even if they did i know it'd be alright because the degree of it would be so much lesser. ivan, darren, shaun , marcus. friends? teammates? we've gone through lotsa shit together. and in turn we have trust. and to the rest of the LT dudes big <3.

to my friends at school. school wouldnt be any fun without you guys. and i don't regret ever meeting u guys :) altho we don't know each other well yet but hell yeah we're gonna. long way to go anyways. and wilson just for you. <3 sayang la. hahaha. maybe sometimes i give the wrong impression of myself but its just a self defense mechanism i guess, something like a mask to protect myself? i don't want anyone to know how i am truly feel or think. its just difficult right now. oh yeah and thanks vivian for being understanding heh.

alright. 1 more irritating math assignment to go. screw this shit.